The story of my life...as soon as I feel like I'm getting somewhere, as soon as I feel like we are finally accomplishing something together, as soon as we get ahead something...SOMETHING always pulls us back. We take a couple steps forward and than BAM we are hit with yet another issue that takes us further back than where we were at in the first place.
This is where I find myself asking...when do I get a break. A break from all of this, a break from the lies, the cheating, the drama, the fighting? When is it finally going to be my turn to just have that life, that relationship that I've wanted all along?
I don't ask for much. Wait...let me rephrase that...I don't ask YOU for much. Matter-of-fact I don't ask you for anything yet you take and take and take from me all the time. It's so exhausting. Yes, I will admit to it, I can be a pushover, I can give in too easily and it's hard for me to say no to you, but is that completely my fault? I feel like you take advantage of my love, my generosity, my willing to do just about anything for you. As soon as I get myself away, pull myself back from the situation and finally realize what's happening you SUCK, PULL, GRAB me back in. Why? Why do you do that to me? Why do I allow you to do that to me? Is it my fault for wanting to give the person I love everything and anything?
I'm finally looking at the bigger picture and I don't like you in it. My feelings for you are slowly fading away and I can't help that anymore. I'm no longer begging and pleading with you to take me back, to let me love you again because I am no longer allowing YOU to walk all over me. To take advantage of my love, of who I am. I have put so much into this relationship, some say a little too much and you have done nothing to try and make this work. It's baby steps, it's the little gestures, the little things that matter to me the most and yet you can't give me any of that. I need more from you and yet you're still stuck where you're at, where you've always been and where you'll probably stay.
You're not going to be happy, but not everything is about you. When can I be happy? When will you make me happy?
I sitting here saying to you that I'm no longer allowing myself to take steps back. I have too much to look forward to that the lesser things in life, the things that don't mean shit to me are no longer going to hold me down and pull me back.
I'm not allowing myself to take ANYMORE STEPS BACK!
This is where I find myself asking...when do I get a break. A break from all of this, a break from the lies, the cheating, the drama, the fighting? When is it finally going to be my turn to just have that life, that relationship that I've wanted all along?
I don't ask for much. Wait...let me rephrase that...I don't ask YOU for much. Matter-of-fact I don't ask you for anything yet you take and take and take from me all the time. It's so exhausting. Yes, I will admit to it, I can be a pushover, I can give in too easily and it's hard for me to say no to you, but is that completely my fault? I feel like you take advantage of my love, my generosity, my willing to do just about anything for you. As soon as I get myself away, pull myself back from the situation and finally realize what's happening you SUCK, PULL, GRAB me back in. Why? Why do you do that to me? Why do I allow you to do that to me? Is it my fault for wanting to give the person I love everything and anything?
I'm finally looking at the bigger picture and I don't like you in it. My feelings for you are slowly fading away and I can't help that anymore. I'm no longer begging and pleading with you to take me back, to let me love you again because I am no longer allowing YOU to walk all over me. To take advantage of my love, of who I am. I have put so much into this relationship, some say a little too much and you have done nothing to try and make this work. It's baby steps, it's the little gestures, the little things that matter to me the most and yet you can't give me any of that. I need more from you and yet you're still stuck where you're at, where you've always been and where you'll probably stay.
You're not going to be happy, but not everything is about you. When can I be happy? When will you make me happy?
I sitting here saying to you that I'm no longer allowing myself to take steps back. I have too much to look forward to that the lesser things in life, the things that don't mean shit to me are no longer going to hold me down and pull me back.
I'm not allowing myself to take ANYMORE STEPS BACK!
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